~ sooo i wanted to touch on something that means alot to me that something is how profound, everthing is~~~~
music~ love~ life~ struggle~ pain~ saddness~ death~ loss~ art~anything really~

there are such deep fucking meanings in everything i do~
i really feel blessed and fortunate to have lived and had the opprotunity to still be here at this point in my life.
and to be able to hopefully produce some music that either might mean something to someone or help them in some way~
or if they like my music for some other reason cool
~it really is all good~ and i love life and love the friends and family i share my life with~

i dont just go around acting certain ways becuase i can
i try to put deep profound reasoning in everything i do ,,meaning i give it my all~ whats within my ability and what i was given and have to work with` i take somethings personal becuase i have traveled a long hard ass road in my life to get to this point~

it sucks to live most of yer life feeling not up to par or fucking good enuff on any level or to be confident in my music~ but i think i am finnally getting there~ i feel alive these days not like in the past where i just accepted things the way they were and i felt i couldnt change it~ bullshit! i was in an accident at a very young age 18 and i did not relize how bad i had hurt myself~
` i was in a daze for a long ass time 10 years or so~~
from jumping into a pool and it wasnt the deep end

18 fucking years old i went on and on and on and struggled thru all the pain and deepression never got any treatment for what i think was a pretty damn seroius head injury~ i was young and didnt want to cuz a fuss~ my family was poor and i only had my mother to raise me~
i thought i was ok but i wasnt like i said i was in a daze in my life for a good tens years

i think i had some brain swelling and they call this type of injury t.b.i. also as a reslut of the same injury i now have d.d.d. degenerative disc disease meaning it deteriorates over time and gets worse honestly i feel good and finnally alive now that i know what happened
to me and even suffered many other head injurys cuz i was an advid mt.biker

over time that many injurys can affect a person in a hell of alot of ways very profound ways~ i love me and who i am cuz it took a hell of alot of pain and suffering to get where i am~ i am very proud of what i do musically~ i gotta start talking about this shit cuz it kills me that sometimes i dont feel like even my friends or family really know me or how i feel and it sucks~
i feel alone and all i got is my music~ it gives me strenght and confidence to carry on in my life. life is profound in so many fucking ways and music and art and so many things we take for granted are so fucking profound~
it really blows my mind thinking about it~ i see movies and shows and art you name it its all profound deep full of undercurrents and tides both good and bad~ and i am so happy to be where i am in life as far as my music is consernd~
i care to much about anything and everything but i cant really help that, its instilled in me, it is me, its who i am and who i want to be~ i know these long journals are a bore but i want to help people know just how fucking special every moment in this life is~ i am so happy to have all of you as friends here and it makes my soul happy too
we as a people and a society can do better in every way~ no one has all the answers and i dont either but one things for sure and that is for me personally, i have no more fear~ i am free of the chains that fucked me up~ i know this creates alot of questions as you all read this~ and i think you all can tell this anit no joke and its not for attention~ i just want to share a bit of myself becuase none of us know how much time we got here~ and tommarrow you can be gone and forgotten~
its ok cuz its the way of the world everything lives and dies~ and were all next~
live every damn day like its yer last~ make yer dreams reality~ create and manifest what you want~ anything is possible~ love and respect yer peers and even yer enimies theres something to learn from every situation in life~
so i hope that you all take these thoughts to heart becuase something will happen soon to you that is very profound like it did to me~
realization, finding yer place in the world~ everythings fucking profound` lol
if you let it be~ and i like that about myself i think~ i think alot~therefore i am~ lol ive wasted enuff of yer time please leave yer thoughts if you have any~ there is a comment button there~ use it!!!
there are so many talented fucking people out there in the world and most of people on this site~ i dont feel like i ever comment e-nuff on songs but i get overwhelmed by how many people there are and how amazingly talented they are as well~ love this place ~lol im lost in thought~
profound anit it~ hope yer all doing well!!!
peace for now~
please if i owe you a listen or two just remind me in most cases i will listen then and there on the spot!